I am not good

I know I'm not a good person to have a conversation with. I know I cry every single time for things that really doesn't matter. I know I got too many problems. I know I get sad for no reason, and i know this is unhealthy. I know I'm holding something that isn't actually here just on my mind. I know that I'm a mess up but the truth is i don't even know how to fix myself and no ones can, unfortunately. I know I'm not enough but I've tried so hard for only take a smile from somebody. I know I'm so fucked up and sort of my life, but sometimes in middle of the night I think out there got a solution for all my problems, sometimes I nearly thought about be happy constantly, even myself knowing the truth. I know I'm broke and seems so impossible to me work out everything inside me. I know I've loved some people and they do care about me even when they shouldn't, I know I'd disappointed them, and this shit is so lame and get me so annoyed. I know that i shouldn't feel like crappy all the time, I need to learn how love me and all my edges, I'll. Really. I know that I'm still into some shits but I'm trying not to cry over this just to who knows or whatever understand how badly is when you don't see any exit for your own.