far

one day i said i wish you were far just to feel how much i needed you with me and to be happy after all, but now i notice how much i hate this idea. i didn't know the distance would hit me like that. i don't wanna pass through this. but i don't know what to do, because the last thing that i wanna see is your confused eyes with that sad smile. now i'm lost in my own thoughts, trying to figure out a way to don't be so sad missing you. but it's not a possibility. it's not a possibility because i know you are feeling the same and when the scene of you sad with my absence comes to my mind, i feel so blamed, unhappy and lost. the idea that you may choose a path that you don't really want, just because it is easier... i can't handle it. but i believe you will keep on the hard way. i believe you are brave enough to realize that after all, this is worth. to realize that your heart is not something you should be afraid of. to realize that you can have your independence, just as i can too, and we can put them together, in a way that it will work out. to realize that if it gets rough, i'll do my best to help both of us. to realize that the clouds aren't just clouds and that poetry is not just poetry. to realize what you have already realized since the beginning. since the first "i'd marry you". since the first poem. since the first "i love you".